Epilepsy or Curse

Not sure but had started my seizures at the age of 15...it was as scary as could not sleep at night or keep my eyes closed even sometimes I felt that I was possessed with some evil spirit...OMG I can't remember those days...I started taking my allopathic treatment as there was some fault in my EEG Test...my neuro specialist prescribed me some tight scheduled medicine for 3 to 5 years...I took all the medicine properly but still remained the same...I changed my doctor many times...tried different medicines for a long period but no positive impact seemed to be there 😢
I did my test EEG nd CT Scan again and again from different hospitals...now I'm 47 of my age and still on medicines.
My seizures occur once or twice a month...sometimes once in two months. The only difference is this that I don't scare and accepted as a part of life...but prays all time that nobody live life like this ..it's a "CURSE"