Fear of having seizures in front of family

I started having seizures in university, my then boyfriend helped me deal with most of them. I was so embarrassed to have anyone else witness a seizure.

Now we’re not together everytime I go home I worry about having a seizure in front of my family. Because mine started at uni they haven’t really seen them and I’m worried they’ll think I’m a freak. When I feel an aura I usually take myself up to my room, have a seizure, and never tell them. I know this is an awful coping strategy and dangerous but I can’t seem to let them in.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated x