Unwanted Pity

My mom, dad, brother, sister, and wife feels pity about taking care of me, but when an attack comes in public, it seems they feels very shameful and awkward. That hurts me very much. Friends, after becoming aware of my condition, go away from me.

The impact on my business

After an attack I get hallucinations and full body pain. I could not focus on my studies in my college years and now it also affects my small retail business that my dad gave me.

All my family takes care of me, and my customers have a counter relationship, but I don't have any close friends. I don't want all of them feel pity, but instead to be proud of me as I am earning more than my competitors...but no.